Why do i think all the time?

I already know that i think a lot all the time. I would question everything.

Then one day.. i found myself thinking of ;

"why do i think all the time?".

I figured that the best way for me to figure it out is to map out my thinking process.

Thus, I had to track my thoughts every step of the way.

and this is how it goes...

[Experiment to test the way that i think:]

Stage 1 [test a scenario]

for example,

If I hear someone say "is that a fish?",

with my natural tendencies to want to know things and my scientific way of thinking ...

my brain would go to this imaginary cabinet of data and look for the letter "f".

Scroll through all the animal list and find the folder 'fish'.

my brain would then look up all things i know about fish.

Find something i dont know...

Then It would trigger the reaction question; "how can I figure this thing out."

Then I would plan an experiment..figuring each step in detail.

(got forbids, there's something about the experiment that i don't know.. and my brain would try to figure that out... and come back to the fish later)

So after i figure out in detail the appropriate experiment to test this thing about 'fish' that is unknown to me. My brain would simulate the experiment mentally and then provide me with the most logical answer.

Stage 2

My mind would then drift to a random-but-connected issue.. such as:

"what if this new discovery, of this thing about 'fish', would change the world?"

then the process to answer my second question would be:

..........................." test if people will still eat fish knowing what I have just discovered"

.........or............. "test if fish might be produced in a different way to be able to feed the poor"

.......or.............. "test if fish might be made into rocket fuel" etc etc

..then after I've figure out the appropriate thing to test ... my brain would simulate the test. Mister Brain of mine could then , provide me the answer to the question:

"what if this discovery, of this thing about 'fish', would change the world?"

Stage 3

My mind will then lead me to the next random-but-connected question. Which will lead to the next random-but-connected question, to the next, then the next and so on.

Stage 4 [conclusion]

So, with this path of natural thinking i have. I would never run out of questions until I've figure out everything there is to find out in the world. There is still the possibility that one of my mental experiments is flawed too. So i can never have nothing to wonder about.

[experiment concluded]

So u see guys... thats what i found out when i was thingking of:

'Why do i think all the time?'.

Well, Thats just how my mind works; A series of random-but-connected question that never ends. So, the answer to my question"why do i think all the time?"is:

" Because I love to find out about everything"

Therefore, I would always tend to space out. But the speed at which this process of

"Question-Experiment-Imagined Answer-New Question" cycles through my head is so fast, that if someone were to ask me "what are you thinking about?"

The answer i would give that person would most definitely sound like the most random thing. When it is in fact a highly organised step-by-step thinking process.

p.s

Its hard for me to finish this posting particularly. Because the questions keep coming. Such as:

"why did i imagine a cabinet of data?"

"what are the implications of my thinking process towards the way i interact with the world?"

"what are the implications of my thinking process towards the way i interact with people?"

"How does other people think? The same process as myself?"

"Am I thinking so much?"

So i better just end it before i go crazy (-_-")

I should probably make a PhD report out of this.

Stage for 100 pounds.. possible?

Feels like a long time since i last posted something.

Been really busy with submissions and what not so I didn't have the time to write anything.

And all those while great ideas of things in the world that i would like to comment on came to mind . Would have had four or five nice ones.

But as life in the real world is more important... all i did was take mental notes, thinking to myself "id write about that after the submission!". Well, submissions over and i seem to have misplaced my mental notes. Arghhhh!!

Well, im just gonna bash out what ive been up to this last few weeks...

WARNING : If your hoping to read something insightful or great by any means, Stop here.

This post is just me blabbering about myself for myself.

Its not enough that i have design work and a dissertation ... i also got myself involved with KNUKE. A young enterprise that brings Malaysian bands to perform in the UK.

I know its called an ENTERPRISE, but the going ons of it in the UK runs more like a student society. Everyone does the work for free and in some cases even puts out their own cash. Since it runs like a student society, we are dead broke in funds.

There's gonna be this band called 'Couple' coming to perform in Manchester in March and im in charge of stage design and hall design. Decided id take it up to add more variety to my portfolio, and its always nice doing something real for a change.

I am tasked to bring the stage and the hall to a proper level of gig. Its a massive hall by the way - It fits a crowd of 500. The project manager comes to me with his dreams of what the gig should be like. He tells me of how he wants a press conference area, VIP area in the hall, an area where the TV company can set up their cameras to shoot the event and a nice stage with backdrops and lights.

To be honest, with a budget of a hundred pounds.. and an average delivery cost of 50 pounds..ive only got enough money to get basic lights for the stage..

would be interesting to see what i could come up with tho..

Ole English Architecture

ohh dammit, the English system....

I did my Architecture BSc back in Malaysia. It was tiring.. filled with sleepless nights and the nights that I did sleep was under/on/around a drafting table. It was packed. They cramp in so many information into a five month semester. And you'd get two of those every year.

So, naturally after four years of that i was drained and needed a change of scene. I applied to continue my studies in the UK.

The system here is different. They don't treat a year as having 2 semester but instead treat it as a single study year. Meaning, there's only 1 final submission a year!! Easier right?

Furthermore, a degree in the Malaysian system would have you do an urban redesign project [think city planning] in the 1st semester, a freaking high rise in the second semester, and a building complex project in the final year [goes thru 2 semesters].

Now, lets look at the English system ; For the first year, I had to design a component [component e.g brick or cladding panel system] and an architectural installation. In the final year I would probably have to design a large building.

lets put that side by side

---Malaysia--------------English-----

1. City Planning--------Brick/panel etc

2. Skyscraper ---------installation

3. Building complex ---Large Building

need I show you the gap of difference and complexity?

But somehow here I'm struggling more. Because we are doing much much much less complex projects.. the level of detail that they look into here is much much much more. Say spending three months on a brick for instance [in comparison to a city]... in those three months they would have you explore the contents of the brick. Break it down into its core materials yada yada. Not enough with that.. they're gonna ask you about the emotion of the brick. What would you feel if you were touching the brick? What if it were a whole wall of bricks? Were not even studying it from an engineering point of view.

The first tutorial for the installation, i tried my best to keep it minimal.. i proposed two walls.. and a step. Their comment : they are too many things going on... [wtf? it's just 3 planes].

The architecture here is much more arty. More artistic. Like they say, its harder to do less.

...and i am not arty.... i am not artistic.. so please god, help me.

p.s. I'm not sure which is a better education system though. I don't know how being more artistic is going to help me in the working world..... a topic for a whole different posting.

You don't work for money. Money makes you work.

Its a strange strange world were living in,

Lets say someone works in a government office... by the time he's 55+ years old. he's gonna retire.

If everything went well while he was working.. he'd have about 20 years to enjoy his life.

He probably spent half a decade of his life learning and studying for that job. If he were like the lot of us.. he would have probably taken a loan for it.

Therefore... he spent 25 years learning how to work. And that 25 years of knowledge is used for 25 years before he retires... and half of his working years, [about 10 years] is going to be used to pay back the loans he had taken up while he was studying.

.. if your still with me.... that means he only got 15 effective years of work. Because 10 years of that is just to pay back his study loan..

so, he studied for 25 years... work 10 years to pay off his study loan...work 15 years to get some money to enjoy after he retires.. and have about 20 years to enjoy that money.

This might be true for everyone of us. ... and to think of it, its all for money.

There has got to be a better way to live life.

Cheers. live long and prosper :)

World against Islam. Why?

I really don't get it..

There are 2 sects that often in the Islam-hating group of people. One are the Christians... and the second are the atheist. For sake of argument.....I wont try to defend Islam in this blog because i know my knowledge isn't deep enough for me to defend it properly.

First up are the Christians arguments.

They often see Islamic laws [or the Islamic punishment for disobeying laws] as cruel and violent. But in the bible, punishment for committing adultery is also by death [levictus 20:10]. Same goes to homosexuals. And to chop off your hands that commit crime.

They say that Islam oppresses women. But again you can find numerous text that look down on women in the bible. Statement; "i permit no women to teach of have authority over men; she is to keep silent" [1 tim 2].

They also say that Islam dignifies the killing of other religions. In fact, the bible mentions in Deut 17:2-7, that Christians needs to stone disbelievers to death.

I know that these statements might have sounded this way because they were taken out of context. Well, how do you think Muslims feel?

Next the Atheist,

I truly support Science and the development of it. Nothing about a truth proven by science is more enlightening.... But, then they come up with the all god are lies concept.

While I was trying to find sources for their claims, i found numerous videos that tries to disprove the bible. After they disprove the bible... they conclude ; Christian, Jews and Muslims are a scam.... wtf? In science terms... its like im studying a goldfish and concluding that crabs are fish.

Atheist, if you are afraid of Muslims.. then you should be afraid of the Christians as much.

And if you would like to say that all gods are lies... please show me how did you come up to the conclusion for Islam.

And I'm not interested at arguments like "there is no prove of heaven".... cause there is also nothing to prove heaven doesn't exist. Same goes for a lot of other things mentioned in the book... cant prove it.. cant disprove it etc. No use arguing along those lines.

I don't obey a religion just because I have to. I don't follow orders blindly....and i believe in science. The thing about Islam is that it doesn't go against science.... and for a book that old to be accurate with science...is what makes me believe in it.... along with the things that couldn't be proved or disproved.

So why is the world targeting its hate onto Islam??

p.s No offence to anyone in this posting. Just an outburst of the anti-Islamic things i see going around in youtube.

"You are the best" i say.... "but why" she ask... (-_-' )

Ska asked me to list, countless number of times... "why is she better than someone else?". And it cannot include things that relates to me such as "you treat me well".... or "you make me happy". I'm very bad at elaborating. I can only summarize things... so this question was particularly hard for me to answer. Not at all because she lacks the qualities, but i just don't know how to elaborate from say "you are a good person" and break it down to what makes a good person good etc.

Since, i cant come up with it.. she has finally decided to help me out with it :p

plays piano

can design

speak 4 languages

sensitive to her surrounding

pretty

can write

cooks well

Doesn't litter

have high morale and ethical morale grounds

got boobs

grounded

low maintenance

And im sure the list goes on. Thanks dear ;)

Skilled and Talented

This post goes out to my baby :D

My girl has just gotten university offers to East London and Nottingham. I would say Nottingham since it's way closer to me than London is. She was always doubting herself and being the in-secure lil thing she is, she worries too much... but I've always believed in her. I knew she could do it. She has amazing writing skills. And she critiques well too. So there is no way she couldn't secure a spot in a masters course ;)

I honestly believe that everyone is talented. The more talent you have, the easier it is to develop skills in a particular field.

Some skills may not generate as much money as others.. but i reckon it would still guarantee a comfortable living [don't get greedy]. The problem lie in people not finding/utilising their god given talents. Most people try to force themselves down a certain route or follow trends....usually with monetary gains in mind. These people often struggle just to keep up with their talented counterparts [far from excelling], thus don't live up to their full potential.

Another important thing to remember is that humans are social creatures. For millions of years people have congregated to pull together resources and skills. Therefore, you don't have know everything. All you really need is a few skills. Focus on it, and your pretty much sorted for life.

What I'm saying is.... don't worry yourself if you don't score in school. Don't worry if you cant draw. Don't worry if you cant count. For there is at least one thing that you are talented at. FIND IT AND DEVELOP YOUR SKILLS.

Interesting thing is, finding it is easier than you think... it is usually in your interests, your hobbies and in the things you like. Wouldn't that be the dream? - Doing what you like, getting paid for it, and feeling good about yourself.

p.s To parents out there ; let kids explore their hobbies and interest for that is where their talents lie.

Time machine...when will u get here?

Did you ever do something and regretted it for the rest of your life?

I am for the greater part of my life a loner.. and i always go with the flow. Whatever life gives me, I enjoy the process of making it work for me. One thing will naturally lead to another, so i don't have much to regret about.

Never the less, this system doesn't work very well when it involves other people. I might have a pretty good IQ... but my EQ is just horrible [I even make jokes at funerals]. When it comes to people.. u cant just right the wrongs u made. You cant hack the concrete and recast it... and a bond between people cant be engineered to be as strong as stone.

But most importantly, no two people are the same. Its not as easy as replacing the broken part with something else. When its gone... its gone. It isn't as easy as using fillers to hide cracks in the wall. The emotional crack will still remain..... and it is worst of all, when u are responsible for those cracks.

Sometimes I can never realize the impact of my actions until I seen it in retrospect. But by then, the damage is done. You could do everything you can to mend the wounds and strengthen the bonds... but you can never determine the outcome.

The best you can do is to hope for the best... and learn... learn from your mistakes and never ever repeat it again. For the damage you've done, would hurt yourself twice as hard.

and leave you with an inconsolable regret...... then you'd wish u had a time machine.